Well today is nice. Trying to feel more better and thankfully I was refreshed today again. It’s Sunday and church really helps me a lot to gradually bring me back to my senses and somehow boost me up to face another week again. Everyday for me is trying times and I am grateful how God still really on the work with me though He knows how I look miserable like almost everyday. Still I am blessed and grateful because i know He knows what I am dealing with. I am very sorry for Him for my actions because I know I hurt Him. But the hope I have for keep on going is that He knows It’s hard and He knows I’m trying.